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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Be OK

I'm not a good singer. At all. But I wanted to show this vlog of me singing a song that I sing a lot when I'm feeling down. Today marks the beginning of Resolve's Infertility Awareness week. Those who struggle with infertility, pregnancy loss, and/or infant loss, often feel like a part of them is missing. That's what this song represents to me. I have days where all I want is to "be ok". So while my singing sucks, the message of this song is a strong one for everyone suffering from the aspects of infertility. So this one goes out to Ter, Emalee, Nik and all the others who are Moms with angels. 

Be OK (Ingrid Michaelson)

Sorry for the poor lighting!


"Open me up and you will see I'm a gallery of broken hearts. I'm beyond repair just let me be and give me back my broken parts." -Ingrid Michaelson

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What helps you on your down days when all you want is to Be OK?

51 comments:

Noah's Mommy said...

Perfect song....great singing....happy SITS day

Kathy said...

Showing my age, but I sing REM's "It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine."

Sarah said...

My mom used to always tell me "There's always a tomorrow, you never know what is going to happen." I really respect the fight of infertility. While I THINK I am okay in the child bearing department, I don't know for sure because I have yet to try for kids (not married yet). It is one of my biggest fears as a woman, and person. I think motherhood is something that is MOST taken for granted by woman...wishing good thoughts to ALL woman battling this, miscarriage, and adoption :)

sandy said...

{{{hugs}}}

Laoch of Chicago said...

Good job

FranticMommy said...

WOW!! That was AWESOME YaYa! You ARE a great singer. I love that song too. On my down days...this sounds weird...but I do a little "shopping therapy". I hit a few of my favorite thrifts and the thrill and the "hunt" for deals never fails to cheer me up. Plus hubby and I play the "tell me something good" game. Even if it's corny, we tell each other something positive ("I like your freckles today" etc). Good job Yaya!

Mighty M said...

It's hard on the rough days. I often can't really pull out - just need to get some sleep and start another day. But if possible I try to find something hysterical to watch. That sometimes helps. Hang in there, and keep on singing!

April said...

This week, I will remember the two babies I lost, as well. It's an experience you never, ever forget! What a great song to share...you did well, my friend! Sending you lots of hugs and blessings!

Kitten said...

On my down days, there's an Elton John song that I listen to, "Blessed." The chorus goes like this:

You, you'll be blessed,
You'll have the best, I promise you that,
I'll pick the star from the sky,
Pull your name from a hat,
I promise you that, promise you that,
You'll be blessed.

There was a long period of my life where I was feeling way, way, down, and that song would miraculously come on the radio at the moments where I felt the worst. I don't think this was coincidental. As a result, I feel like God's speaking to me whenever I hear this song.

I downloaded it to my iPod. On the worst days I put it on shuffle and hope that it comes on. If it doesn't, I just find it anyway, as a reminder to count my blessings and be grateful for what I have.

Emalee said...

Thank you. I loved the lyrics

Summer said...

That is one of my favorite songs, and you did awesome!!!

Amy said...

WOW. You sound great. I usually go shopping or I eat something I really like.

the misfit said...

I can't listen yet b/c the volume on the computer isn't working (!!) - have to try a different computer.

I sing a number of such songs to myself, all fairly cheesy - "I Believe I Can Fly," "Seize the Day" (the Christian rock version - I don't really like the more popular one), and once in a while Meredith Brooks's song with the bad word in the title :).

laala said...

It's great to have a song to sing when you're feeling down. :)
Never heard that particular one before, good lyrics.

Kristina P. said...

I think you did a fabulous job!!

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

Awwww, I loved it, Alicia! You sang it perfectly - and gave me major goosebumps. This week I'll remember my 4 lost babies, marvel at my little miracle and keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGZ!))

Christina said...

Awww you did great! As for what gets me going its nothing sad , but rather a punk song called astro zombies by the misfits. Its about aliens coming and destroying the earth. I know it's odd but it helps. Anyway I got a button up just for you too!

Robin said...

You've got a pretty voice, Alicia! Nice job. And great song.

Franco said...

Hey betch, what's cracking?
You fucking suck at singing, JUST KIDDING! you have a very lovely voice, I actually think you soft voice is perfect for this song, which I love.
What's helps me when I'm down? noting really.

ps: I've redesigned my blog.

Mommy In Waiting said...

that was beautiful. i love how you are willing to be so vulnerable! God Bless You!

KiKi said...

Thank you so much for sharing this...great job! It really struck a chord....

Kelly said...

Hugs! Thanks for sharing that song, you did a great job! I love Ingrid and the music she makes.

It might surprise you to hear that I also turn to music. Ha. Although my song of choice is always changing.

Naomi said...

You will be ok...

You're a strong person and a wonderful support to others.


I think you're on your way of "finding out what your life is meant for"

<3

LadyStyx said...

Wonderful message. I've got several songs that I turn to when I have low points. Each different low point has it's own song.

Living With Loss said...

(((((hugs)))))

Thank you! That was perfect and made me smile lots. Great lyrics.

Bee and Rose said...

That was awesome YaYa! Music is always chicken soup for my soul too:)

Firefly@www.firefly-shop.org said...

Love it Hugs :)

Keeper of the Skies Wife said...

Thank you for sharing this! It always feels good to express yourself with singing!!!

I'll be thinking of you this week!

nikkicrumpet said...

crap...I can't get this computer (I'm at work) to let me view your vlog...I'll have to scoot back and try later. My daughter in law just did a post on infertility...it broke my heart. just know I keep you in my prayers.

Mistika said...

Can I start a fan club.hahhaha

Julia said...

I remember this song from before and can even excuse your singing.. hee hee! ;P YOu have courage and heart!

Liz said...

Ya Ya do not give up it took me 10 years to have my first son. Thank you for the nice comment at my blog!

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the misfit said...

Hey, thanks for your comment. You're right, it is a sad idea...maybe too sad. I definitely meant to include theoretical ADOPTED children (and I've updated to note this). But, we won't get to meet the little babies that have gone, this side of heaven...so we can't know what kind of people they would have been.

patty said...

I can feel in your voice and see in your eyes the pain that your soul is, and you do not understand in the same way, but with the same pain ... I have children, but not me, and there are days that my heart is not resists of strange ... I can only say - do not stop fighting!!!!

Donnetta said...

One day at a time, Alicia. And you have found a fabulous song.

Helene said...

That was a beautiful video....I actually like the softness of your voice and it was filled with so much emotion.

I love the new look of your blog!

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Wendyburd1 said...

You have a nice voice and I like the song! I wanna be ok too!! ((HUGS))

Juls said...

((((BIG HUGS)))) Loved the song. It's a great one, I've never heard before.

kel said...

I adore Ingrid! And you have a very nice voice!!

Jen said...

Wow!! I am beyond impressed!! You have a great voice and what an awesome song! You are amazing!! I can't say I am struggling with infertility, as my hubby and I have not officially started TTC yet, but I do know what it feels like to long to be a mother! I feel like I've been waiting for my hubby to be ready for several years now! Thinking of you this week and many more who I know are struggling also! Thanks for sharing this video!!

Hugs

Jen

Lee said...

Beautiful song. : ) Brave of you to put up a video singing. I could never do it, whether I could sing or not. People would make fun of me.

jewelryandgiftsbyrebecca said...

Not bad at all! What a song...
I could have used a song like that to get me through some of my days.
Sometimes when I'm down I watch "Steel Magnolias". It reminds me that there are up and downs everywhere everyday. Some are harder and deeper than others but the world will continue with or with out me. I want to know how the story ends so I keep going.

Ryan Ashley Scott said...

I've never heard this song before, but I love it. LOVE IT. Singing anything helps, doesn't it? (My husband is now singing along and says to tell you that you have a nice voice).

Dancing, or even just sitting, in the rain on a warm-ish day... makes me feel good. Weird, but it helps.

Jeanne said...

Alicia,

You are just so awesome.

First of all, your voice sounds great to me. Remind me to never sing for you because then you'd hear what a person who can't sing sounds like! :)

Second of all, you never cease to amaze me with your bravery. When I first started making vlogs (you know, the kind involving no singing), several people told me how brave I was and I didn't really feel that brave.

Somehow, not seeing the people who are watching what I'm saying looking back at me makes it easier. If all I'm looking at is the camera and maybe my husband, I don't get nervous.

However, I would never be brave enough to sing. That was so cool how you just put yourself out there. You totally rock!

I remember seeing Ingrid's video on your blog months ago. You did an awesome job!

As you know I use Tori Amos' music a great deal for coping with all sorts of things.

One of her songs has these neat lyrics:

"Well I found the secret to life
I found the secret to life
I'm okay when everything is not okay"

For me, it helps to know that no matter what is going on around me, I have the power to make it OK... at least on some level.

Jeanne

Xazmin said...

Thank you for sharing this! I love the song...and you sing better than me!

Prayer helps me when I'm feeling my lowest.

Vickie said...

That was great! I have heard of this song before, but this is the first time I listened to it.

After Baby May, my song was A Brand New Day by Celine Dion.

Also...the lighting is great, it gives you an incognito look:)

pam said...

You are a beautiful singer!! I love the song you chose, you sang it with such passion.

Rayanna said...

I can see you're fighting the tears. I love you. You sing just FINE! Oh, I didn't make Mixed Choir, oh well.

Valerie said...

Yaya I think that you sing good. I like that song.

Hmmmm when I am down. I know you are not going to believe this but I am very rarely down. But if I get sad the first thing I do is pray. The second is let out a good cry. Sometimes it's a little cry sometimes it lasts 30 minutes. Then I pray some more. Usually after that good cry I am ok.

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