Tonight's class was on "Gains And Losses. Helping Children Leave Foster Care".
I am very tired, as is expressed in this picture we took when we got home. I was seriously falling asleep a few times. I started clomid (fertility drug) this week and it seems to be kicking my a$$.
I had a hard time concentrating tonight because
A) I was tired
B) The girl that sits next to me brought a giant tuna sub for dinner. Who the heck brings a tuna sub to an enclosed room of people??? The hormones I'm on for fertility make my sense of smell overwhelming...so tuna was not making me happy.
C) Josh kept making me laugh. At one point I was supposed to answer a question but Josh did the Clay Aiken to me and I bust out laughing.
(You know what I'm talking about, right?)
D) I was really into drawing swirlies. See? I like to draw them like this and then sit back and stare at the page and wonder what they are, like maybe they're all ant hills, or maybe they're all time warps, or maybe boobs.
So anyways, what did I learn in class tonight? Oh yeah, you must unconditionally love the child you adopt. And once the adoption goes through that is your kid and there is no going back on the deal, even if the kid burns your house down or kills your dog or perpetrates your niece of nephew. (I'm honestly not kidding about all of those examples, those were actually said by the leader). I asked why it seems in every class they are trying to scare us away from this type of adoption and the instructor told us they need to be in reality to warn us for anything. Ooookkkkaaayyyy.
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I have to admit. I've been really overwhelmed during these adoption classes. It's consuming. Every spare minute is spent doing paperwork and/or housework related to the home study. I keep trying to look ahead to April because I know that once March is over and these classes are over I won't have to deal with this mundane-time-consuming aspect of my life. I guess what's most annoying is that I just want a kid. I'm tired of all this prep-work. I just want my kid.
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"We never understand how little we need in this world until we know the loss of it." -James Matthew Barrie
