Infertility Support Group Meeting

Last night I attended a support group meeting for Infertility. I always walk away from support group meetings in a better mood. It's awesome to be in a room full of people who know exactly how I am feeling, without me even saying a word. Last night's meeting was on Chinese medicine to help infertility, and also gave people a chance to voice questions and concerns about living with infertility. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in my daily thoughts that surround my infertility. The woman running the meeting gave the wonderful advice (you've probably heard it before) of "Thou Shall Not Covet". It is hard for women with infertility to not feel jealousy over seeing women with babies and knowing that we want that so badly, but just can't have it. Jealousy, frustration, anger, sadness, and self-hating thoughts (ie; my body is not good enough, my body is a failure) are just a few of the near daily thoughts for  a woman suffering with infertility. Not to mention that it also wears on a marriage and relationships. The monthly cycle is intensified for a woman with infertility. We count days constantly, we worry about over-exertion, we worry about timing. Then...we believe we are pregnant, we believe that "this is the month", we start taking every little symptom as a pregnancy symptom. We get our hopes up.....then.....once again.....our period shows up and these thoughts/dreams we just had all over again (that we promised we wouldn't indulge in this month) are crushed/shattered/destroyed. And don't even get me started on weight gain. Every month when we think 'I'm pregnant!' we start to eat a little extra, then, we're not pregnant, and all those extra calories were for nothing. It's a perpetual cycle. I just want to know, when will I get my happy ending?

PS. For my 'infertility readers'-in the left column of this blog is a song you can play that reminds me and helps me with my battle with infertility. It's called 'Chasing Pavement' by Adele.

"Thou Shall Not Covet"